| The Freedom of Buddhahood
Buddha-hood is the discovery of
freedom. Not freedom from the outside but freedom from within. It is
freedom from our own mind distorting reality. As long as we are
looking for freedom from outside we are doing the wrong thing and the
fundamental suffering of hope and fear will perpetuate.
Real freedom is freedom from our own
conceptions, from the psychological veil that is distorting the way
things are. When we are free from our own unenlightened mind, that
internal veil, we see that even our problems are divine. Everything is
a manifestation of great emptiness. That means that everything is
divine. We have to love everything including the dark side of the
world. We have to love whatever life presents to us. Are we ready to
let go of all of our resistance and see all of life as divine, as a
manifestation of Supreme Source? This is a practical discipline.
When we are encountering difficulties
in life can we simply learn how to love what is? When things are
falling apart, when we are having bad hair days, when life is
mistreating us, can we find a way to love it? Some day we are all
going to die. We may die alone or we may die surrounded by friends. No
one knows how or when they will die. But we all have to find a way to
love that we are dying.
What is happening to us right now?
Are we dis-liking reality? We have a simple goal – to love all of
reality. We have to love everything. We are always relating to reality
based on preconceived notions rather than the way things are. Things
are perfectly perfect the way they are. Confidence is knowing that
everything is perfect. We all have moments of being completely melted,
moments when we surrender our ego completely. There is the possibility
of being in that place every moment. This requires work, the work of
reflection and meditation practice.
Our greatest karmic tendency is that
we feel we need to have control of everything. We need to control our
reality. What is the opposite of this? It is to wait and do nothing.
Sometimes we feel that we are dancing
in an ocean of ecstasy. But sometimes we lose our awareness and we get
lost in confusion. We merely have to wait. We don't know how to wait.
We have to do something. All of our habits of tension well up. We want
to declare a national emergency in our own world.
All human beings hate waiting. I
remember being in India and waiting in line for train tickets. People
were pushing and shoving because they couldn't stand waiting. We have
tremendous aversion to waiting. Ego is afraid of not knowing. Our idea
of certainty is based on ego. Our mind has to be preoccupied by
notions that there is security and certainty in every moment. Ego
needs to hear, "Everything is secure." Ego is terrified of
uncertainty. Ego can't accept reality.
It takes many years of meditation to
realize that we have no conflict with reality. This absence of
conflict, this acceptance of all conditions and events as a perfect
display of Supreme Source is very simple and portable knowledge. We have
never had a conflict with reality.
Whenever you feel conflict remember,
"This is not my problem. I have no problem with reality. This is
ego's problem." Ego is always insecure and falling apart. Reality
is mighty. It rules the whole existence. When you are able to
surrender to reality you will experience a great awakening. The act of
surrendering to reality is enlightenment. It happens suddenly,
spontaneously, at a very unexpected moment.
As long as the mind is veiled by
misperceptions of who we are, we fight with reality. Surrendering to
reality is the ultimate act of knowing who we are. When we are in
harmony with reality there is nothing to surrender. But when something
arises, surrender immediately. "I accept." Surrender comes
naturally sometimes. Especially when we have been defeated many times.
Suppose that someone tells you that the sky is falling apart and you
must hold it up. You do that and become very tired. Then you decide
that you are not going to try to hold up the sky any longer. This is
very freeing. The act of surrender takes only a millisecond. In that
moment you realize that samsara never existed.
The quintessential goal of our dharma
practice is surrendering to reality in each and every moment and
seeing and loving everything as divine. The problem that we usually
find in our practice is that it is easy to love when we are in
conditions where we are getting what we want. But it is difficult to
love the conditions that we don't want. The truth is that there is no
difference in what is to be loved and what is to be not loved. It is
our obscured mind that is putting limits on everything. Being dead or
alive is the same. Being sick or healthy is the same. Being hungry or
full is the same. It is all divine.
Enlightenment is a state where all
conflict has subsided. The way to actualize this consciousness is
through loving everything. In Vajrayana we often apply visualization
to transcend our obscured perception. Visualize this world as a
perfect paradise and everyone in it as a perfect Bodhisattva.
If we go beyond duality what is our
work? In duality at least there is a job. Beyond duality there is no
work. There is only one moment. One moment in which there is complete
integration with everything. In that moment ego dies. |